ASK iAN * THE ROAD IS LONG…. .*
He was a suicide...my friend...he was a suicide too...
i sometimes think i feel his hot hand on my tattoo...where his name is sadly engraved into my arm...
i like to sleep
i like to steal away
i like to let my mind drift
i like to drive
Suicide is leaving others to clean up after you...i know you don't care about the mess...it's just our hearts in a blender.
We all feel
lower than the birds of Heaven
zoom...so fucking what.
Beat the wooden desk, set fire to the wardrobe...i wanna die too
but i don't
perhaps i am stubborn
The Good Lord knows that it ain't the jollies that keep me
BLACK REBEL MOTORCYCLE CLUB
was born to give a home to the disenchanted...
we dont come here because we glitter
we dont come here because we took first prize in the best looking dog show...
this is the lower nether regions
of the outcast
and no sir...i am NOT Obedient.
i am sick of fear
i am tired of the myths
my hands are golden and swollen
i never wanted to win your prizes
and the roar of being alone
i came here because there was no other choice
it could have been a dagger
it could have been a noose
it could have been a handgun
Instead i picked up a guitar.
When i feel sick
i play music
when i feel sick
i write words
when i feel sick
i smash my hand into the laundry machine and THEN pick
Up a pen
and write more blackened and disturbing words...
i am not here to collect your pension...
i am not here to receive your ultimatums...
i am not here to win your ribbons, your trophies, your badges...
i Am Here
to burn with the Eagles
run with the wolves
spit suicide out like dandelion puffs...
Here to test the gravity
for nothing less than Love
Bottom Line is
because the dumb in power are dumb...
Quit looking for disclosure on things your
heart and brain
to be True
Sometimes we can be our own worst bully
and that has got
Quit second guessing yourself...
If People that suck
Understand once and for All
that you are on the right track...
It get's better my Ass.
It doesn't get better
it gets stupider
and therefore you have to be cooler than you already fucking well Are...
If a mountain comes to tear down your frame
explode it from the bottom Up
if a woman doesn't dig yer pony
leave her and let the next sucker lose his mind...
If you get with somebody ( a man) who wants to change everything about you
then remain the same and kick him out the door and allow HIM to change...
If you get picked on in the school yard...pay a motherfucker 40 bucks to whip the shit out of your stalker......
when people hate you
they are envious....
because they hate
the freedom you display
as you are being yourself....
we doubt it.
Not in this Lifetime......
Maybe i'm off track, maybe i am off the course...
i think about suicide everyday...most thinkers Do.
This is the 3rd suicide close to a friend in a month and a half...and i am sick of all the Good people checking out....
Some say it is selfish...
in a way, i suppose it is....until we have lived in their boots.....
but at the same time....
Not Everyone was meant for this world...as sad as that fackt is....
it's not that their skin wasn't durable enough or that they couldn't hack it....more like they wouldn't
hack it...just not their fucking gig....
whatever it all means...
i pray to the lords and the godz that you stick around
cause i don't wanna be the only cunt on the corner tough enough to stick it out....
I grew up around suicide....
Kevin, Darren, Glenn, S.W, Ashley, M, and the list goes ON...........
cut it Out fucker
WALK THROUGH THE FIRE
we're down in the electric blood hurt dirt with You.
Go Down WHEN AND ONLY WHEN
Down....like Johnny Cash
And don't Get Me Wrong...i miss my friends and their lives...but you know who gives a shit?
So Fucking What...
an that's all that counts
There's a HOTLINE for those who are feeling suicidal....but instead of calling someone who doesnt know you...maybe you should dial your own heart.....
ain't nobody else in the world like you....never was, never will be....you are fucking rockawesome*
Love yourself like i love you....ya motherfucking star.....grit your teeth, hit the streets and shine on......you god damned sweet heart* motherfucker.